Recently, I have felt uninspired, ready to do the status quo, complacent…. or in other words not very creative! This is a very strange place for me I have frequently and actively chosen to follow my passions, trusting that, by following my passion I am on right path and everything will work out. To this point in my life that has been true. When I am passionate about something I cannot help but to talk about it, strive to do more, and come up with creative solutions. Like everything in life with time, comes change, and my passions have changed. I cannot pinpoint the moment when it happened, nor can I describe in words what the shift is to.
So I have been thinking a lot….
- Did I choose to stop following my passion?
- What is my passion?
- If I can’t name it or describe it, how can I do it?
- Have I settled into my default self?
This idea of default self really has me thinking? When I say default, is there a place or stride that I just get into when there is nothing else that inspires me? Yes, I think we all have this default space. I am starting to realize that mine is quiet, passive and task oriented. Another characteristic of my default self is a need to keep things close, I don’t really want to spend time with lots of people, I just want to stay to small social circles. Let me be clear, my default self isn’t sad or unhappy, it just isn’t the inspired person I think of myself as when I am at my best. If my default self is not my “Best Self” then what is? How do I re-ignight my passion to jumpstart my super productive self, the self that I see accomplishing the lifetime goals I have?
First, is this default self really showing up in every aspect of my life or is there one specific area I can identify the default is creeping in? I think it is safe to say that this lack of umph is not a universal malady in my life, instead it is very focused. I am currently my default self in my work life. For better or worse we spend almost a 1/3 of our adult lives focused on “Work”. That is a huge chunk of our time! Even with a fairly flexible job where I worked from home I have found that while I may be able to use daytime hours to do life things, work is still there, maybe evenmore since my desk is in my house. Two weeks ago, I would have told you that I was in an ok place with work, maybe not my dream job, but it was fulfilling all of my basic needs as an employee and as a member of my family. One week ago I was told the company is closing and my services are no longer needed. Honestly, I’m ok with that, maybe somewhere deep inside I am relieved. I accept this opportunity to refocus myself….. What do I want to do????? Before I start my search for something new, it is time to ponder my passions, my strengths and my weaknesses that I will bring to the next step of my work life. There is a lot to consider, the first question I am going to look at is “What truly wakes you up each day?” or asked a different way: “What gives you that creative inspiration, that you love so much?” Hopefully this will help me move past the default work self and help me find my next opportunity for my best work self!
What gives you that creative inspiration? If you have an answer to this question I would love to hear what ignites you. Leave a comment below and let me know!
I enjoyed this activity with my kiddo so much. We created something new from something old. We created a space for her to play with her bear. I spent time with her fully present and excited to use my hands and my years of experience.